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September 7th, 2005
07:12 pm - giving a helping hand
if you dont donate to the people of the storm at least donate for the animals. all petsmarts are set up to take donations that will go towards food and housing for the animals that are affected by the past weeks storm. Its very important to help them out, after all they cant tell us if they're hurt or hungry.
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August 29th, 2005
11:43 pm - bored
being borded leads to this
Take the quiz: "Who is your emo boyfriend?"
Bert
your so cool! you love to sing and scream in your songs. you also write your songs with feeling and emotion.
Take the quiz: "Whos your punk BF?"
Tom DeLonge
Tom huh? Your super cool and meger funny you so should date tom! Together you could do silly things together like.....make fun of the kid next door!
Take the quiz: "What Kind of Music Are You? :::pics:::"
Emo
You are all about yourself. You're a lover and when things don't go your way you become depressed. Chances are you're a very nice and likeable person but most people don't see that in you. You endulge in writing poetry and music and perhaps art. You're all about being loved and sometimes it gets to the point that your love becomes selfishness.
Take the quiz: "What teen celebrity are you?"
Ashlee Simpson
You are a fun filled teen that can get along with just bout anyone!
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July 18th, 2005
01:48 pm - HELP ME LORD
How can I say something to my brother without him going off on me or making a bigger deal about it. I simply cant deal w/my sister in law anymore. As if yelling at her the other day wasnt good enough. Its sad when your grandparents have to leave because they cant deal with her anymore. I cant take this shit I just cant. If shes not asking me for cigaretts shes snooping around the house. Im sorry you dont have any friends but fucking stop trying to make it like Im one of them. I cant stand your pill popping self. I wish you would just kill yourself already so I wouldnt have to deal with you.
Im moving into my car. Ive decided if I do that then the bitch wont find me. Its like she keeps comming down here and pounding on the door and what am I supposed to do about it? Im not gunna answer. I have no money to go shopping or anything of the sort. Maybe I'll take a shower go get dressed attempt to buy smokes and go for a drive. I need to do something and I have no where to go because its a Monday and everyone and their mama is at work.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/yellow/angry_sy.gif) pissed off
Current Music: none
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June 13th, 2005
07:11 pm - No More
Im thinking no more drinking until the 4th of July. Hope I can do it. Also as of today trying to stop smoking. Im sick of smoking a whole pack while I drink.
Pounding headache last night...had to leave @ 1am to my own bed. Even tho I promised I'd stay.
Things were ok.
Get to hang out w/Kyles cousin next week at Vistaways show. Met her for like 5 mins and she's like will u be there next week I'll hang out w/u.
Downloaded new BSB cd. Think I'll finally go put it on a cd
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/yellow/mellow_sy.gif) calm
Current Music: Westlife~When Your Looking Like That
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June 8th, 2005
10:33 pm - Forget My Name
tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name
can you tell
that I'm losing myself
I think I'm trying too hard to
let it show
to let you know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me
cause I've been gone for a long time
waiting on the sidelines
hoping for a chance to play
well I thought I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say
tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name
can you tell
that I don't know myself
I need someone to remind me
to let it go
please let me know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me
cause I've been gone for a long time
waiting on the sidelines
hoping for a chance to play
well I thought I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say
tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name
and if I had the chance
to do it all again
I wouldn't expect anything less
and if I had the chance
to do it all again
I wouldn't expect
I wouldn't expect anything less
tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name
forget my name
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: NFG~"Forget My Name"
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June 5th, 2005
05:29 pm - Whattttt?
What the hell went on last night!?!?!?!?!?
I have a bruise on my ass....must've been when I lost my blance and fell. But falling on the grass wouldnt leave that big of bruise. Maybe I hit the bricks I was standing by.
No more Absente unless its in canada.
Im gunna fight a bitch the next time I see her. How dare you not shake my hand when I introduce myself bitch.
PS Im the reason why she isnt in vistaway anymore ;)
To much making out on my part. My boyfriend loved it....every guy loved it. I think we made money but I dont remember.
No more nights like that.....ok for a while. Yeah ok until next weekend.
Woke up @ 9 this morning still drunk...but made it home...to pass out again.
Now its 5:30 and I need to shower.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/yellow/emberassed_sy.gif) embarrassed
Current Music: No music right now
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May 26th, 2005
09:01 pm
I hate that I come 2nd
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May 1st, 2005
11:48 pm - I feel better now
Im so fucking sick of scene kids!!
heres a new flash just because I dont deck myself out in black or super trendy shit, or dye my hair black, wear thick eyeliner, wear black hoodies that our 3 times my size does not make you better than me and doesnt give you the fucking place to judge me. As a matter of fact chances are I listen to all the same shit you do and am into alot of the stuff your into....but b/c I dont dress the part you have to say something to me when I show up somewhere? Kiss my fucking ass you fucking little pricks!
Now if only I would've said that upfront when I walked in and heard "Who are these people, Their clean what are they doing here....I wish I had the ball I would throw it one of them" Which only leaves that to be thrown at me or kyle. so you know me Im not gunna say shit I'll just leave and thats what I did.
I judge fast yes.....but I never judge a book by its cover if I did I would never read ;)
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February 20th, 2005
11:21 pm
Hey-
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I've joined and I think you should as well.
It's a completely legitimate offer, and this company has already given away $4 million in FREE stuff!
All you have to do is join, complete an online offer, and refer friends to do the same. That's it!
Here is my referral link. To help me get my iPod, click this exact link to join, or copy and paste it into a browser:
http://www.freeiPods.com/?r=15406130
lol just cuz i really want a free ipod. please just do it lol.
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February 11th, 2005
05:55 pm - Need a moment
You know what I fucking hate more than life....
-being hung up on
-having money *b/c I pay for everything and buy whatever*
-when Kyle acts like an asshole
-having nothing to do @ night
-when pizza takes an hour to arrive
-when old guys dont see you stoped at a red light and hit you
-the little old lady who yelled at me today cuz I asked her what the area code of the # she wanted me to dial was
And thats it for now
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January 18th, 2005
12:30 am
Straylight Run, Bella Lea and Action Action
Blind Pig , Ann Arbor, MI
Fri, Feb 18, 2005 08:00 PM
I will be there!!
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January 13th, 2005
09:46 pm - So This Is The New Year
So were 13 days into the new year and I must say.....it seems nothing has changed. As far as me and kyle, still broken up pretending to be friends, when I do tell him everything and i just get the half ass story about shit. Why Im bothering I dont know, oh wait cuz Im holding on to something, yeah thats right its called something that isnt even there. Maybe it never was. I dont know. Im not writing this for everyone to yell at me about. Infact getting no replies at all would make me perfectly happy.
Im trying so hard to change myself, who I am what Im about what I think. And for once not let someone elses thoughts control me. But it all goes back to point A.
Im not looking for a boyfriend infact being single is okay I did it for 20 years whats another 20. I just want to have a good guy friend again. Someone to replace or not really replace but fill the space of Nick, or Andy & Cory. Just someone to kick it with drink/watch tv and just laugh about stupid shit.
I dont think what Im missing from Kyle is the relationship aspect at all, its the solid fact that for nearly 2 years he came to know better then anyone and almost better than I knew myself. And vice versa. If he wants to admit that or not, I still can pretty much predict his every move.
Sometimes I wonder if he says the stuff he does to just piss me off. Im always doing shit to get a rise out of him he says, but Im pretty sure he does it more than me.
I just want everything in life to be ok again. I dont wanna cry anymore because I feel like the biggest part of me left. I just feel that a huge chunk of my life crumbled....and no one not even the other half of me can pick it up. Its all over the ground, and people just continue to walk all over it, stomp even.
And now that Ive written a novel and depressed myself til no end Im gunna go to bed.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/yellow/sad_sy.gif) sad
Current Music: Westlife~If Your Hearts Not In It
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December 25th, 2004
10:27 pm
my biggest pet peeves....being hung up on, being ignored and being stood up
i hate that shit
Current Mood: angry
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October 24th, 2004
12:46 pm - hahahah
One I hate chinese food. Two hes not even old enough for a bar. Three I love the run forest run part as the response!!!
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August 16th, 2004
12:40 pm - Captain
Im the captain of team warped.
People were dropping like MJ was there.
Next year it shall be called "The King Of Pop Tour" or "Thriller"
I hate little cunt bag girls. I swear @ about 6pm it suddenly felt like I was back stalking Otown or any boy band. GC is just to huge now. Their only on tour for a week did they really need to bring their "family & friends" Fucking I was so angry I could've just fucking cut someone.
Did however meet the drummer. Hes my new friend. This 10 yr old boy was wearing a Alice n Chains shirt. Chris turns around and he sees it hes like ohhh cool do u even know who they are....little boy shakes his head no. "Yeah I didnt think so"
Had a clenched teeth convo w/Jordan of NFG. It was fun. Took one for the team cuz I decided I would take Ian cuz he looks like hes loosing some weight. Told "James" of whatever band hes in that I decided I loved him and we should get married. Im still convinced his name is Josh and the last name is Madden. He looked just like fucking Joel and Benji.
Adam lit up a smoke right after he walked off stage. It was beautiful I wanted to hump his leg.
I gave Lex a dollar to ask the creepy guy for a cig. And she did LMAO.
Asked some super GC fan if I could buy a cig off her and she said I could just have one. Cool. Hold on was amazing...for not seeing the fucking set. I dont want to be waved to Im trying to call u over to me so I can ask u something.
I was all set and ready for my new tatt yesterday to. Dreamer on my wrist. But then I thought maybe that won fit. So I'll try for the chinese symbol for Dream.
And now this is fucking huge. Backstage passes did us no good this year. Maybe next year they will set it back up they way it was last year.
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August 8th, 2004
11:45 pm - TBS 4 LIFE
Finally got the new TBS cd....Epic!
Im currently looking for a new job *I say this yet today looking in the paper seems to have slipped my mind*
Im reading this totally epic book right now. "The Time Travlers Wife" If your into some what confussing yet very intresting books I suggest you get yourself a copy. But Im sure I just turned everyone off on that one. Seriously I was confused until the 3rd chapter.
There now is a new girl at work. She's just like me but has her shit together...is a year older, and is mixed. I find it weird that she has never had a black friend. She also was one of 2 blacks in her school. We had probably like a handful at the time we were in high school. Anyways shes way into Korn & Kid Rock....once she metioned them I kinda dropped the subject. HOW ON EARTH DOES ONE LOVE KID ROCK?!?!?!
I got really bored 2night and watched some of that made for tv movie on Michael Jackson VH1 made.
When did VH1 become alot cooler than MTV? Was it when they started w/the I love the *enter decade here* Could be.
Im obsessed w/the Assisant. I find it dumb but yet highly entertaining.
I want a kitty so fucking bad its just not funny. I even bought a scratch n win today cuz it had something about cats in the title. Mom just doesnt want one cuz of Princess. Its not my fault the dog is insane. Last night I got home and she wanted to go out *the dog* and so I let her...but she runs back in. Carol had her umbrella up. What a wuss. So I go to bed and she wont go back into moms room, I lay in bed and read she just stares at me...so we go downstairs and try this all over again I think it went on for a good 20-25mins. Finally I told her to fuck it and the next time she wanted to leave my room I wouldnt follower her. And she huffed at me LMAO I just reread this and I think I sound more insane then my dog right now.
Anyways yeah that my was big update.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/yellow/singing_sy.gif) chipper
Current Music: TBS~ One-Eighty By Summer
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July 2nd, 2004
08:38 pm - Im a failure by design
The subject says it all.
Im so fucking sick of this life I wanna die. I fucking hate this!!
Im fucking sick of being 2nd. And fucking drinking comes 1st.
Im a worthless piece of shit.
What the fuck am I still here for?
"Im another day late and one year older."
Time apart means nothing...time apart means hey lets still talk and do all that stuff...I want me and U how it was in the begining. Its to much to ask for I know. & Im sorry I asked for that. FUCK
Like I said I wish I were dead...I feel like I am. I wanna puke...
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Sugarcult~ Memory
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May 24th, 2004
08:38 pm
| NOTE: z | | No smoking around lilamysparkles. Thankyou for your co-operation. |
From Go-Quiz.com
hahahah yeah Im giving myself cancer already please dont help LOL
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09:57 am - Oh What Fun
Ok lets just start off with....I just saw the god damn hoobastank video at about 8am. I have my tv on Mtv right now (10am) and its on again. WTF then ask why I hate the song so damn much.
I was on a hot search for my fave mad tv skit this morning when I came across the tape of Otown *first time we saw them in person* And now that I have a new VCR *very cute rear...remember those keychains* It doesnt look so bad, before it would be scrambled. LMAO "You in the orange you have a question for Otown"
Anyways on this tape it had loads of Good Charlotte....I think all of it was from TRL and stuff. I dont know I only watch one thing and turned it off cuz I just wasnt in the mood for it. Life Style fans I dislike you.
You suck go to hell.
I want Red Bull...I dont wanna go buy it tho. Oh well.
I also want a big mac...I dont wanna go get that either...besides Micky D's is still on the breakfast thing right now.
Im gunna go read the last chapter of yet another Nicholas Sparks *GOD* book and start the last one I need to read before starting Salems Lot.
PS Ellen said she wasnt a nigga yesterday @ work....I nearly pissed myself. I never in a million years thought I would hear such words out of her mouth...not at work anyhow.
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April 29th, 2004
11:19 am
Its funny that Im even gunna do this. No one replies to my journals unless I write some god awful thing.
Post a memory of me and you, & do it now
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